I’m going to babysit tomorrow night. The people have a sweet ass deck, so I’m gonna take one of my pipes, but which one? I don’t think I should take the long one, cuz I’m still ashamed I spent so much money and am still thinking about giving it as a gift. That leaves BenBowlio and the new baby I’ve only smoked out of once. I definitely got super high from it, but its pretty big and kind of hard to conceal. And I haven’t gotten to smoke from it since last week. Then the weed. My main man isn’t coming around my way, but he gave me the number for one of his associates near here. Then my ex’s friend messaged me telling me he’s got og kush on deck. Now, I’m not saying I’m not excited by that prospect, and i do know the guy, but…its somebody associated with *that* guy. but hey, for good weed i should be able to overlook that…but then how do i know I’m getting what I paid for?
But fuck all those decisions, because I still have weed and I still have roll ups.
Weed makes EVERYTHING BETTER. I feel so much better weed improves everything, not to mention my music is banging right now and I got my munchies on deck! yayyy me! I’m super high right now guys. If anybody saw how emo i was before and see and feel how glad I am now, how could you ever say weed is bad? And now I’m gonna do everything I gotta do for dinner and not have an attitude! Nobody gets me. I just love weed.
I'm having a terrible, horrible, no good very bad day.
Again. I don’t even think tree will help. (you know its bad when weed can’t solve it.) I’m just really quite sad. This time last year things were looking up for me. I think I’m just really regretting the relationship (that i got into last year this time). I just want to cry but that will probably also make it worse. I don’t miss him. I hate that I cared, so every time I think of him, and how i wasted my time just to get stabbed in the back, I just can’t deal with myself. And its not even like I can’t get a new boyfriend there’s a guy that really likes me, but I can’t commit right now, to anything. I’m fucking up the tree swag at home getting caught fucking twice, like wtf! Its like, if I was one of those suicidal chicks, I’d do it. But I’m too strong for that,so I’m just stuck in this unhappy limbo with nothing to really help me out of it.